Everything You've Ever Needed
Who makes your decisions? Who decides what you're making for dinner and what clothes you put on in the morning? Who decides if you go to work or not? Who decides how soon is too soon? The truth is, we make decisions all day long. We choose what's best for us, what's healthiest, what the responsible decision might be. So when do we get to just follow our hearts?
Falling in love is the one thing we do with our heart. It's the one thing that we don't choose. We don't get to decide. Yet, the things that stand in our way, remain things that have nothing to do with our hearts. Fear. The past. Pain. The unknown. Yes, our heart knows the fall out of some of these things but the only thing holding us back is our mind. The memory of the way things happened before. You've trusted before. You've believed the same words in the past. What makes this one different? What if it happens again? What if the same mistakes are repeated? Yet the real question at hand is, what if they're not? What if it is different? What if it is everything you've ever dreamed of? That hopeless romantic that you buried deep down inside of you, she's screaming to get out. She's still in there dying for you to let her just feel everything you want to feel. You tell yourself it's too soon. You don't know nearly enough about him to really love him. You can't possibly know the connection is real this soon. Logically, all of these things make sense.
Still time is a funny thing. It slows down and speeds up at rates that don't make any sense. Winter in New England is years long in just mere months, for most of us. Yet the summer flies by as quickly as the fireworks evaporate from the sky on the 4th of July. Your children are babies one minute, yelling in a crib. Then suddenly they're teenagers, yelling about the Wi-Fi turning off in the middle of a YouTube video. So why do we let time define everything we do in life? I'm not old enough to get married. I'm not young enough to wear glitter. I'm not ready to move on. I haven't known him long enough to love him.
At what point do we let our hearts decide? When a 3 hour phone call feels like minutes. When a kiss feels like the next 60 years of your life. When the first time you are naked together you feel entirely open and comfortable, a trust that hasn't been spoken yet. These are the things that truly mean something. These are the moments you have to hold onto.
That hopeless romantic doesn't have to be begging to come out. If you let her be what she wants to be and let her feel what she wants to feel, she can live in harmony with the rest of your soul. Maybe it's terrifying. Maybe it's unexpected. Maybe it doesn't make any sense to the rest of the world. But maybe, just maybe, it's everything you've ever needed.
Falling in love is the one thing we do with our heart. It's the one thing that we don't choose. We don't get to decide. Yet, the things that stand in our way, remain things that have nothing to do with our hearts. Fear. The past. Pain. The unknown. Yes, our heart knows the fall out of some of these things but the only thing holding us back is our mind. The memory of the way things happened before. You've trusted before. You've believed the same words in the past. What makes this one different? What if it happens again? What if the same mistakes are repeated? Yet the real question at hand is, what if they're not? What if it is different? What if it is everything you've ever dreamed of? That hopeless romantic that you buried deep down inside of you, she's screaming to get out. She's still in there dying for you to let her just feel everything you want to feel. You tell yourself it's too soon. You don't know nearly enough about him to really love him. You can't possibly know the connection is real this soon. Logically, all of these things make sense.
Still time is a funny thing. It slows down and speeds up at rates that don't make any sense. Winter in New England is years long in just mere months, for most of us. Yet the summer flies by as quickly as the fireworks evaporate from the sky on the 4th of July. Your children are babies one minute, yelling in a crib. Then suddenly they're teenagers, yelling about the Wi-Fi turning off in the middle of a YouTube video. So why do we let time define everything we do in life? I'm not old enough to get married. I'm not young enough to wear glitter. I'm not ready to move on. I haven't known him long enough to love him.
At what point do we let our hearts decide? When a 3 hour phone call feels like minutes. When a kiss feels like the next 60 years of your life. When the first time you are naked together you feel entirely open and comfortable, a trust that hasn't been spoken yet. These are the things that truly mean something. These are the moments you have to hold onto.
That hopeless romantic doesn't have to be begging to come out. If you let her be what she wants to be and let her feel what she wants to feel, she can live in harmony with the rest of your soul. Maybe it's terrifying. Maybe it's unexpected. Maybe it doesn't make any sense to the rest of the world. But maybe, just maybe, it's everything you've ever needed.
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