Mastermind

    The tears just kept rolling. No matter how hard she tried it was like a never ending flow of tears. It had been months. Nearly 7 months to be precise. Yet each day was the same. She woke up feeling purposeless and unloved. It wasn't because she didn't have love in her life. She did. She had her kids, her family, her friends. She even still had his love. It just wasn't the same. This was the worst heart break she had ever had. It wasn't like losing someone. She still had him. In fact, it would be easier if she could hate him. It would be easier if he hated her. That wasn't the way of it though. He still wanted her in the same way he had wanted her from the beginning. She wanted him even more than she thought she could ever want another person.      Confidence. Self-love. Happiness. An open mind. An open heart. These were the things that made her who she was. The love she had for herself and for everyone around her. The way she used the pain to push forward a...

     She knew he was bad for her.Well no, she just knew that in the end her heart would be irreparably broken. She knew without question that he loved her now simply because he couldn't have her. She also knew that as time went by his old ways would come right back to the surface no matter how hard she tried or what she did.      Still, as his car came up the driveway, her heart started racing out of control. The urge to sprint down the stairs and outside into his arms was almost uncontrollable. So she took a deep breath and held it. It was windy and pouring rain. There was no power so the only thing lighting the house was a few candles. She made her way slowly down the stairs to unlock the door. She caught a glimpse of him as she turned to walk back up the stairs. "Holy fuck." She thought. "How did I ever manage to walk away from him? And for fucks sake, how am I ever going to do it again?"      He followed her up the stairs and into the b...